finishing up the reference page for my marketing plan,
i'm really into spoken word via youtube right now

try: If i ran the internet
seashells
second guessing
thick chick
barbie and ken 101


and my favorite, favorite
This Is For You

today i read poems at a manuscript reading.

and found out that next year won't be as lonely as I thought.

it's a good day.

Izzard is in NY all week. There is no excuse for me to not see him.
If I don't go I may just die.
Seriously.



I mean it.

Dear Accounting class,
I hate you.
Love,
Shaba


I have class this weekend, but I'll be free after 1:00.
I will require: the company of those I love and enjoy (definitely)
                        entertainment of some sort (definitely)
                         food i should not eat (probably)
                         a long run   (probably not, but I'll try and think positive)
                         a slew of long island ice teas (without a doubt)
Let's work on this.

The highlight of my night was Dr. Anthony telling me that some random individual came up to her last night after the performance and said, "Whoever that is who did the moaning should look into a career in the preforming arts!"
Hehehe.
So much fun!

Many thoughts to be thunk today.
After bringing myself back from the brink of too-sick-to-function, of course.

Trying to get all my work for the next week done tonight, not sure how well that'll work out. A blank canvas and paint is calling my name.  As is the stack of books on my night stand.
Though maybe, just maybe, the extra sleep collected over the past two days will allow me to function a little later into the night/morning.

Halfway through an accounting take-home exam. Debit this credit that. Still don't know what I'm doing. Thank god the final's take home too.
One page down, 7 more to go on a paper due Saturday. Working ahead makes me feel productive, and the fact that I won't finish it all tonight makes me feel like a failure. How can both exist at the same time. Perplexing.

Wondering if a really steller internship would be worth falling a semester behind.
Wondering if the LSAT really is a good idea, a few joint degree programs intrigue me. Sarah Lawrence, Cincinnati. A back up to a back up?
Wondering if taking another stab at the Gre's would help or hurt me.

Cursing the universe for taking my one weekend without work or school away from me by means of head cold death. So much I could have done, precious unscheduled free time sucked up by sleep. And I still find myself imitating sea lions.

Need to stop neglecting conference planning and recruitment. Just so difficult to fight a losing battle, and do so by myself.  Haven't written a speck of anything in forever, maybe no submissions from me this time around. Someone give me an assignment.

Ok, back to the attempt at productivity.

Extended weather forecast states that New Mexico may reach 51 on Wednesday. That makes me happy.
The lows are still freezing, but i guess i can deal.

I have things I need/have to do today, but they are only going to be completed after a spend a few hours in barnes and noble.
Because I said so.

The big story of today is thus: my capstone paper was accepted into a conference in Binghamton University. Yay!

As promised, a Christmasy post, entirely composed of my sort of realistic christmas list.

( My Christmas List )

Happy Thursday!

1)     I’m officially signed up for the Spring Break 2009 trip. It’s 1700, for air fare, accommodations for 10 days, a guide, all transportation, two meals a day, and three credits! Oh yea, and it’s to Paris, Rome, Milan, and Florence. Exciting!

2)     My mom and I were going through a costume jewelry box of grandmas and found a tiny silver capsule-like box. I thought it was a piece of flint or something, but imagine my surprise when I opened it and found a tiny replica of the Holy Family inside! I turned to my mom and said, “It’s Holy people in a tomb! Gramma has Holy people in a tomb in her jewelry box!

3)     Everyone and their brother has told me I should turn my upcoming New Mexico trip into a short novel of “self discovery”. We’ll see.

4)     I found an all-women sprint-length triathlon in Philly in July, I thin I’ve talked AMD into doing it with me. I’m excited.

5)     Tis all for now. Stay tuned for a Christmasy update.

I'm currently watching The Little Mermaid tv show.
I didn't go in to work this morning. I still felt gross. I'm still kinda out of it. There may be another nap in my future.

One last note, since when are Ron Stoppable and Kim Possible a couple?

Why this constant need to compare myself to others? Why this ingrained urge to constantly become this better version of myself?

I spend too much time in my head.
Seriously. I typed out the whole thing, the whole rambling list of things I wish I was. Then i followed it with the actions I need to take to get there. Then I saved it to a word document and deleted it from livejournal. Somethings are just too pathetic to announce to the internets.

You know what bothers me? That I have all these impressive, reflective thoughts and somehow, when I sit down to write them, they retreat back into the depths of my mind. And i never had a pen and paper handy when they hit me (usually while i'm driving/in the shower/etc). Wouldn't it be wonderful, in a creepy irobot kind of way, if some day our daily thought processes could be saved and printed out for our review. Fascinating, but again, creepy.

Long story short, I feel inadequate (once again), and I'm working on trying to figure out a few things:
#1) How to work on the things that I truly would like to improve
#2) How to forget about the things that I already am (but don't always believe I am)
#3) How to break the cycle of constantly revisiting this issues.


I'm going back to reading Austen, it's like cheescake for your mind.

this is not a good idea.....

http://listography.com/nixey

But it's soooo good.

I am involved in too many competitions with women who don't know they're even playing the game.

      I feel bad about this because, as the all-knowing Ani says, "Women should be allies and not competitors."






Still it occurs.

I can't believe the stuff on tv.
Feministing.com features two different videos today, one about the rise of "Purity balls," which I at first believed to be some sort of laundry gadget, and another about "Fembots".

According to the video "Purity Balls" are dances between fathers and daughters to commemorate when the girl "pledges" to keep her virginity until marriage. And she pledges it to her father. CREEPY.  As one reader stated: "So...you sign your virginity away to one man (your father) until another man (your husband) comes to sign a new contract--giving him the right to "own" your body and virginity? Great idea."
Gross.

On to Fembots. The today show apparently had on these two ridiculous women (editor of MarieClaire and a psychologist) to talk about how "Fembots," this 'new' category of women who are career driven and emotionally unavailable are causing a "social revolution".  The psychologist evens goes as far as saying that women are "hard wired to be nurturers," thus, those who "don't care when a coworker brings in baby photos" are somehow off balance. Off her rocker, she is.  The best part, in my opinion, was when the interviewer said that "fembot" isn't a very nice sounding name for these women, to which the non-psychobabbler replied, "It's a fun name."  You're right. I'd love to be compared to a robot.

OK,  so after sharing my feminist rant of the day i guess  I'll let you in on The News.
This is the strangest thing. The last two books I've read mention Taos, New Mexico, i think i may have mentioned this in a previous entry, but just wait, it gets better. So i'm surfing the internets at work today (since i had absolutely nothing to do) and i end up reading a blog posted on some women's magazine website. About two entries into it I notice a gorgeous picture and find that the author took it in Taos, New Mexico.
So, i think, "the universe must be telling me something, maybe i should spend spring break in Taos, or look for a job there, or something. If someone asks me to go to New Mexico I'm saying yes."

Fast forward two hours.
My dad calls me
D: Want to go to New Mexico on a big game hunt with me? I found a really great price.
S: Uhh. You know what, yes. Sure I'll go.

So i'm going hunting in New Mexico during Christmas week.

Weird.

In the past few days a few things have occurred that I felt deserved mentioning, I'll try my best.
#1 Apartment hunting. I checked out the place of Ben's residence and it was almost a winner, unfortunately there is a "no unmarried couples" policy, and because i intend to be living with zach again that wouldn't work. I have to call one place back on monday and i'm looking at another tomorrow. Hopefully one of them will come through because i'm freaking tired of calling people.
#2 I'm almost done working! Yippee! I have two days left and then i'm off till the end of august, at least. Speaking of work though, i was driving back to Ryanland and i noticed a police car pulled over to the side of the road with its lights on, i thought it was a speeder until i realized that there was no car in front of the cruiser. As i passed i noticed that on the lawn of the house the police car was pulled over in front of there is a man sitting in a hospital gown eating a subway sandwich. Just chilling. On the lawn. In his hospital gown.
#3 My parents are away on vacation and since i'm working all the time i've been coming by to feed the kitties and get the mail. Everyday i come home to at least one mouse in the kitchen. Today there was a mouse and a bat. The house smells like death. My family's having a good time on vacation though, my brother ran into the production crew of www.3alliance.com and ended up spending the next day at Cedar Point with them filming for their flagship program "Fun!" not only is he on camera all the time but they gave him lines! And they're sending him two free dvds. I asked him if he's got an agent yet. Hahah.
#4 Ryan and I are getting super excited for cruising. We just booked an excursion, a clear kayak/snorkeling type deal. We leave for Jacksonville on the 19th. Our last few days have been exciting too, we've been doing a lot of "research" for my bartending class. He's working a lot more in order to bank some "cruise money" (read: drinking on the boat money), so we've got a strange schedule going on. We've still managed to get to Old Forge for pizza, played a "three stroke rule" game of mini golf, and ventured out to Murry's (which isn't as scary as it seemed when i was drunk) where some very bold and unattractive girl hit on him. haha.
#5 I get my wisdom teeth out friday, i'm not that excited about the IV. Otherwise I don't really care.
#6 Today I woman came into the ER with a sick kid and told me, "He hasn't touched his video games all day, I know he's sick."  She was right, he probably has meningitis.
#7 I now have Word and the rest of Office installed, i'm a happy camper.

Guess what?
I'm alive.
Weee.
And I'm working all the freakin time in the next month.
I work Monday, I'm off Tuesday and then I work from Wednesday to Monday. Eww.
Work is getting dumber as they expand. It's silly they're doing all this remodeling and reorganizing things in an effort to make it "better" but really it's just going to piss customers off and make everyone do more work than they need to.
Anyway, I'm flying through books since I'm done with school and thus have nothing to do at work anymore. I just finished "The Meaning of Wife" by Anne Kingston. An interesting read and it brings me one book closer to my life time goal #156: Own every book written on my favorite subject.
There are too many people in my house. Too many boys. Ahh. This is why I don't come home.

I spent last night in Ithaca to celebrate Sarah's 20th birthday. It was a good time. We drew on the chalkboard table, i read the feminist literature in the bathroom, I met some interesting people (including a 'bubba' who's real name is Steven and is a transvestite-executive form), Shane got ridiculously drunk and sarah and I took care of him and i got to sleep in a loft that i needed to climb a ladder to get to .
It was fun :-)
So I'm tired. And i guess i'll be going to beddy bye. But before i go, I'm going to leave you with a link to my amazon wish list. :-) It's almost birthday time and i figured this is easy for boyfriend. :-)

http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/2R3CQ21UNVD0Y/ref=cm_wl_rlist_go/102-8777306-3179300

Hola!
I have found myself in need of a new computer and I'm debating the Mac v. PC thing. As most of you know I've had extremely bad luck with computers since I started college. What i really want it to do is: work.
I need to be able to use office programs.
I need to be able to access the internet.
I may need to be able to install some business related software, through the MBA thing.
I would like to have the ability to do video/image editing.
It'd be nice if it was fast.
I would like it to work (without any glitches)for 3-5 years.

Help?

My goal for the summer is to get something published somewhere that isn't Manuscript.